Merry Christmas :)

Merry Christmas , :) , so i havent wrote on in a while , i seem to write every few weeks now , haha , so im wondering what i am getting for christmas , annd yes i havent opened my presents because my dad works tday , so we are opening presents and shiznit tomorrow :) , so this eek has been pretty amazing , well minus the whole Jackass moment , but he is history , maby still a good friend , but gah , i dont knwo if i can even look at him at the moment without wanting to punch him ..... anywais , soo Riley,Nae and Sarah came over the other day , Nae gave me my x-mas present , it was a really cute tiger giant plushhy :) and htses metallic eyeliners , im actually wearing one of them its a rally cool silver ish gray :) , and it loks amazing hen i blend it with my purple eyeshadow block :) , annnd im watching muchmusic top nes shocker of 09 , must say very funny >< , so last night i talked to a friend from ( grade 7,8,9) , well we werent the closest friends in the world he actually didnt like me that much , and i think i actually hated him at one point , but yah nywais not the poitn , last night he startd talking to me on facebook , and it was a little more friendly than it shoulda been :P but yah we exchanged numbers and who knows :) , i think im finally back in the game bitches , oh and i must say mister has gotten hawt ;)

Pce&Love

Maree

Rileyy & Nae

Hellloooo , so wow twoweeks since my last post , i fail......so last night , Riley and Nae came ovahhh :)i must say it made my week , like gahhh it felt amazing just to laugh like a moron without dad or anhone telling me to shut up or that their busy ...so i did their haiiir , dyed it blue atthe bottom , and pink bangs, and then cut it and with nae's hair i dyed alittle bit of the bottom pink :) i hope they loved it:)so yah , well now im off to help dad do the snow removing in the drive way toodalooo :)

upppp

heyy , update im am still currently living at emma's soon to hopefully head back home:)
ive realised in this time of need half of the people i talked to i shall delete , they couldnt give a hist or even a call r message to me , and needed my friends the most lately...ye fuckers:)

Ninja assassin

Hellloooo felow readers , sorry for not posting lately .... ive had a looong two weeks , ast weekend i went to Melee's wich was AMAZING , we celebrated her 18th birthday, it was amazing we wnt shpping and to sT HUBERT :) , annd i bought her this really cute black framing picture thing :) not cheap but sooo worth it , like she was so happy =D , so this week me and my rents went in this massive fight and for a while im living at Emma's =D , annd on wensday Emma,Sam,Tay, and I went to see The ninja assassin , gahhh what an amazing gut renching movie that was , the lead guy who play's a ninja gone mad:P , is sooo hawt =D , soo yah , annnd last night Emma and i hung out with A& J R , and i think i might be falling for J , fuck , we've been really good friends for like 3 years now ,since i got to West we've been friends, fml ... but for the past few times we hang out at his place, were always alone downstairs , in his room .... and well .......

sooon hopefully we might be more ...i just hope he wants to , and isnt just being J for nothing ><

Pce & Love

Maree

Lonng time

wow so nits been over a week since my last post i am sorry to have been keeping you all in the dark ><...but it is because i finally have my laptop all hooked and up and stuuf , so wooooooot :)
hahaha , so this week nothign has truly happened... minus me and Alex have been getting alot closer , i for one am realystarting to like him alot , like he is truly an ama\ing guy :) , and well i duno im excited for him to meet everyone :) , haha ... and today me and Sam .. orshould i say Sam and i have planned a Chrsitmas party :)... woot im excited for that ...and um Melee's coming down soooooon :):):):) wow ive missed her so damn much like it's niuts :P


<3

Fire Breathing Scene

Cha ching , i work a 6 week .... fml , i work for 6 days ...fml...6 fucking days.... gahhhh , so Zomg this weekend is going to blow -_-.... tho i get to see mah bestiie Nae , and possibly Justin =D.... but gahhh i hate my life at the moment ..... confession ... i slight my stupid wrist 3 days ago o.O.... no i didnt purposely do it , well slightly on purpose ... i decided to show my boss how to open the crate ... crate hit me cuz my boss was in the way..... then i notcvied blood...ALOT of it...and it was coming from my arm...im awesome i think :)...oh and i got my new hair, well my hair done... and its an explosions of orgasmic red:)

Magnificent failiure

Halooweeen was the Shiit my dear:):):) , like woot , Caro came over for thew weekend , it's always good 5o see ur childhood best friend once in a while right? , haha we had a slut of a time:), Nae and Sarah joined us:)... Teased Nae's hair , put fake blood and Bam a dead Marilyn monroe for you , she was in a coffin for a few hours to scare inocent children >< , sounds cruel but was immensufully fun:) , and then we casme back here , but madfe a regretful pitstop at Tyler B's house , where Nae had a back and forth of going up and down the walk way for a good 15 minutes then we all went up , tho she crawled to the first "manequin" there was 3 , and they started to run after us because i took a pic to see if they were real or fake ppl -_-./...... anywhoozers, we peed or pants....hard..... then we went back to my place and Nae got hmm , molested?.... lmao... and when they left me and Caro played GTA tioll like 3? o.O.... and Yesterday i went to seee Cirque Du Freak with Sam and Lindsay that was way to good for it's own good><

Swing it all away

wow , tomorrow is the day we all say goodbye to a beloved calssmate,brother,son,friend...tomorrow is the day we celebrate his life , and cherish the moments shared.... it's going to be a sad day :(..... So yesterdayyy was amazing , lifted my spirirt up for a few hours:)... i went to the Rocky horror picture show thingy at the center, with Tay,Sam,Emma,Allan,Lindsay :) and i saw 3 lovely lovers of mine Kailtyn,Sarah and Riley:) it was a blast all 8 of us minus miss kaitlyn cuz she left early:( , but it was good to see that gorgeous smile of hers :)... so yah 8 of us if i counted right went outside to play in the kids structure WOOT:).... lmao , it was too funny Emma and Lindsay falling of the titertooter , Riley and the Mental boner, Me,Lindsay,Emma and Sarah's tire swing adventrue , saddly Emma Flew off o.O... very scary moment i must say , Dancing to dirty minded songs, slaping air asses at the same time , wow so many things so litttle time><... and the best part of all , swinging :):):):):):):):) it was the bestest ><... lmao, anywais today im going into centrum with hopefully Sam and Lindsay:) Wootttt:) and getting new books, yes i understand that my librairy is full as it is but i can deal with more books i live on fictional characters lives bfefore my eyes><... if that makes anysense to you my readahs :) , if i have any readers>< lol , wow i probly dont... know i feel sad , Gahhhhhh , anywais , so tomorrow Emma,Stef and possibly Nae are heading to Cam's funeral :(.... i can't put my mind that mister party boy has passed away :(... like he was such a lively perosan :(.... but maby the heavens needed more partying than we did , and they took the est of the best :)..... I love you Cam Rip <3


Forever remeber his smile and laughter , for ones heart may always woner how can one so alive can pass away

Rest in peace Cam Harvey <3

Cameron Harvey , wow , the party king and the all around amazing guy ...has past away ... i didn't know him personnaly , i only wnet to school , prom and graduated with him , and went to a few parties that he was gladdly enjoying :)... to young to be gone , yet such a lively spirit lives on , he will never be forgotten , he shall be remebered as everything and everyone has of him from a memory to a simple smile ...... he wasa one of the guys you would crush on , or look up to , he was the all around party goer:)
Cam We wont forget you

<3

Black eye

, so this weekend sucked major balls , minus the day in centrum -_-.... lmao , i was sort of suppost to hang maby with Nae, Sarah and i think Riley and brit, not to sure who was gonna be there ><... but saddly my dad was like NO u are sick and i don't want ot drive back and forth and all that crap , and i hink Nae's mad :(... god i wished i could of gone , cuz i miss her facial expressions of how funny she is><... lmao she could lift a dying man's spirirt with one smile :) , yes as u can see im in a jolly mood , if your wondering why i am , it's because i just discovered that i might be able to see her sooner then later:) , i had almost every weekend till x-mas planned ( way to long without seing my best friend i must add) , and well last night i talked to Melee ..... annnd she isnt coming down , not until her b-day atlest , so that just gave me 2 weekends too see Nae WOOOOT , and this weekend imma make sure to see her like BAM , i might miss her way to much at this point -_-.... but weirdly enough i think she hates me :(... or mad at me , cuz she told me not to call here anymmore , and just wrote w.e on my wall and her status was " im done with your b.s" im totally hoping it's not about me , but with my awesome luck it is , i dunno why tho :S... actually Friday night i asked where are friendship is going cuz to be honest i havent kestionned my friendship with her since our last fight i know that shes there for me and ill always be there for her , but i asked where was it heading and she sort of took it the wrong way , but then we were fine again , cuz she understood that i didnt mean it like that ><... and like gahhh , anywaiis , so tonight i think imma call her to plan something for the weekend , and omg i saw new pis of her hair that im guesssing sarah did , and it's really nice :):) im jealous that she got to do Nae's hair ><.....teehee.... speaking of hair i have my appointement soon woot wooot , and my tattoo omg omg omg ^^ lmao and my septum and my meduse :):):)

Pce&Love
Maree

Damn you's a sexy fiiiissshhhh

damn you's a sexy bitch
damn' you's a sexy fish ><

haha so wow , we are sunday , and im working tomortrow morning at 9 , gahhh , but for the past three days its been amazing , i couldnt ask for a better weekend , like im surprised Sam hadsn't tried to murder me yet , ou well ><...its been so much fun and tomorrow after work im heading to her place cuz Sam,Niki ,Anita( aka mom , well sam n niki's mom><) we are going to Sidney and Lindsay's house for thanksgiving supper:) me soo pumped , its going to eb soo much fun :)
anywais immas check my facebook adn im off to beddy byes cuz im so tired , but i shall leave you with this , be thankfull for your loved ones because they only come once and if you loose them , who knows when you shall see them again , i should know , losing my mother and sister :( <3

Knew all the blackest blues

Hqppy Thanksgiving my fellow Canadians!!!! haha for me this isn't a big weekend , i have alot to be thankfull for, but saddly lately i haven't been all that thankfull trust me , but today and yesterday was an amazing two days spent with one of my best friends :) Miss Sam :) woot , ye si said i was suppost to see Nae but we all now that didn't that didn't happen , anywaiiis , so yeh yesterday we watched like awesome things on youtube and T.v cna't rmeber what saddly ><... but yeh and we listenied to music and tlaked :) " I don't wanna know if you got laid" sry song im listening to at the moment><.... so yeh and we made this nast soup last night , i wanted to puke >< , and today i went over again , i looked pretty awesome i must say , :) , and we wacthed movies :) ordered some yummy suicide\honey garlic wings , and argued abouit me and my husband sasuke <3<3<3><><...... so yeh , and well today got me thihkking while texting people , " if the hole world told me i should disapear , could i fall next to you" lmao sry song again ><... very sad , actually i am tearing up , there hasant been one day this past month i havent cried saddly i am that pathetic and your the one i tell , wow im that awesome i tell a computer how i truly feel , but yeh i wasthinking about how things have changed for me , and how ive changed for the better , but again it';s never enough for certain people , so im getting rid of some people agaoin :(... it blows but tonight sam and i had a deep convo bout certain things and well i don't need people telling me to grow up and people telling me how messed up i am and that im fucked , gahh , It's just hard to ctahc my feelings when i always run away , but this time im not ruinning , im walking to face everything.... this might get messy trust me

Grow the fuck up and act like ur Eighteen :)

Broken nails

it's thursday meaning tomorrow is my b4est friends non birthdayy :) , yes shes being a total loser about it but its okay ><... lmao soo today , today, today was a major ass of a headache , a truck fueled about 65$ in gas , then drove off, went to Sam's but then left an hour later cuz she was heading to the sens game, and now im home with a headache and cramps , fun i know ...but yeh hopefully tomrrow Nae still wants me to come over , cuz i finally got my mom to man up and drive me there after my shift , well i finish at noon , and she finishes at 4 so id be there round 5? .. lmao
Saddly she didnt want me buying her any present , well she can suck it up :) , i bought her one that im either bringing tomorrow or its part of her x-mas present><.... cuz i wanna bring her shpping so she can pick out somehting also ><... like i sort of wanted to buy her a new monroe ring but i didnt know wich one so imma bring her to bayshore and make her shoes some ><... woot , annd saturday , it's thanksgiving here , ad Nae is comiong over to save me from it , can i say i have an aaweosme friend :)

now speaking of that friend , imma go do the dishes then clal her up:)

Pce&Love
Maree

Qui Prendras a Place

Si l’instant
Menacer par le temps
Change les vents
Qui prendra ma place en suivant mes pas
Effa?ant mes traces et ma voie
Si l’instant
Menacer par le temps
Ne m’appartient pas
Qui prendra ma place en suivant mes pas
Effacant mes traces et ma voie
Qui Prendras Ma Place : Marie-Mai

Damdidadomdi , it's finally wensday , the middle day of the week anoncing that i only have 2 more days of work till the morst horrible weekend on the face of this earth , my plans with Sam , not happeneing , cuz she truly busy :(, Emma leaving for the cottage , and everyone else couldn't care less of if i wanted to hang with them -_-... so my social life , 2 people yep im that aweosme at this point , I've hit rock bottom ..... so im in my week , and im truly emotionally , and right now i feel so damn alone and depressed , tho im super happy thati have Humanoid English and German , obviously i enjoy the German better ><... and well Friday is My best fwends Birfday=D shes getting old i know 15 wow , its sickening ><... Jk.... saddly i havent talked to her in like 2 weeks?... if that .... fml , i wanted to do this aweomse thing for her birthday , but she's probly busy... but as long as she has fun on her birthdya im happy for her:)... okay i might be lying throught my teeth id be somehwat mad if i didnt see her for her b-day but saddly it wouldn't surprise me if she made plans and forgot bout me , everyone else has , well Kaitlyn,Caitlin,Tristan are the only ones i talk to now ( Sam,Tay,Emma,Caro are other catogory><) ... but yeh from west no one talks to me unless i start a convo with them , well K.m talks to me like everyday shes an aweosme friend , like today she made my day when she was like ur aweosme =D gahh made me smile for a split second ><... then i realised i was smiling by myself and stopped .... if i cried myself to sleep for a week straight would that be bad?.... like since i tlaked ot my sister ive been so , everywhere , i truly need my friends cuz man saddly i decide to play with the exacto knife on sunday , it wasn't pretty , my hip has a nice clean cut now , i hate my life..... FUCK , im so blessed and thankfulll and happy to have talked to Maryse , but allt his anger and frustration and sadness has been haunting me since....

Fuck & Life
Maree

HUMANOID LAND OF ZOMBIES

YES I HAVE HUIMANOIIIIIIIID =D Im the ahppiest girl alive att his moment , it's amazing :):):):) , andddd i saw one of my girls tonight the one and only Bff ninja i know ><.... SAM :) we went shopping at bayshore , bought her and emma's first x-mas gifts, yes i buy mor ethen one thing for my best freidns i am that aweomse:P and we went to eat at shoeless joes wich is YUMMMY try the Buffalo Chicken fingers ( suicide and hot ) ^^ , then we went to see Zombie land , AWESOME MOVIE :) , and then we talked about the upcoming weekend since my rents are dumb and forgot about me they planned a weekend of adult fun , so sam invited me to live with her woot , and miss Emma will join =D mouhahahahaha

Pce&Love
Maree

Countdown minus one day

HUMANOID!!!HUMANOID!!!HUMANOID!! OMG OMG OMG TOMORROW IS HUMANOID RELEASE DAY:) Finaklly Tokio Hotel's new c.d is coming out!!!!!!! i am soo excited ive been waiting for this fooooooorrrrrr so long! wowza :) , so this weekend was good , considering the facts that i have maby if 3 realz ><... lmao , i was with Emma on Fridayy:) we wet shopping :) then on saturday me and my dad went to hull:) gahh that was good i got to book my appointement for my septum and my other new percing , wich no one will know about until its done , well except a few liek Sam,Tay Emma,Caro they shall drag it outta me , well Emma and Caroline already suceeded><><><... hahaha , and me and her and tay are going to get tattoo's in less then 2 weeks , well Tay is going only with her mom at her b-day but the weekend after that me and Emma are going at the same time :) sooo pumped , and it's truly a mirtacle i get my beloved sisters name tatooed and i talked to her last week , i think things are finally going my way .... and so my final design is a bow as i originally planned with Emma last Xmas if im not crazy ><... teehee but i shall also make it a little dark , like it's not going to be pink or anything but its going to be different , can't say my fellow friends you shall have to wait to see><, so saddly sunday i couldnt see a cdrtain friend :9 Dee i haven't seen her since Carp fair o.O.... befor that it was like summer o.O , and well she went shopping with her mom wich i thihnk is pretty awesome ,but yeh i was hoping to hang with her and her sister cuz i love both of them like they are my own sister , thats why it's not weird for me to hang with them ><... but saddly i don't think ill see them anytime soon trust me.... aniwais , on to more funny news , i gaged my snake bites o.O yes i knwo GROSSSS, but its not a huge deal , its just that my ball on the stick shit , went through my lip , hurt like a bitch but its pretty awesome , so now i need to be very carefull :)...

Pce&Love
maree

Happiness takes 4 years

Wow so i have ALOt of things to say sinde my last post , first of all , i called my sister on thursday, talkd to ehr for 11:40 minutes :) there was alot of crying and laughing , mostly at the same time , i have missed out on 4 years of my babie sisters life:( she is now in grade nine in the art major at DELASALLE:) im so proud of her , hence that school is incredebly hard to get into , tho i did get into vocal and intstrumental major:) anywais , so she tells me that shes tall now , has long ish hair and its a brownish red :) she used to have blonde hair as a child and bright blue eyes :) so she has changed alot , and she said shes dyed her hair a few colors already >< , and she also told me that i have a baby brother of the name Andrew:) what a gorgeous name i must say:) , i knew i had a brother but i alwais wondered his name ><.... so we tlaked , and she wants to see me soon:) that i am truly blesseed when i see her i shall never let her go again :) i have never gone a day without thinking about my sister and mother , and on thursday my cries for help had been answered , by myself ><.. lmao , my parents are proud and i am proud of myself for making that leap into the crazy world of drama :) , and well i can't beleive that my baby girl is 14 , how times have changed , she is a mature young girl now :) i am sure that the hardshiops to come she will concer with me:)
so now on some more boring aspects of life.... i have realised that i am losing alot of friends, well there still here and talk to me , but i think now what i call them are "old friends " and are now accaintences , like its sad i know ><... lmao but the people that i can still say are either a Great ,good,or best friend are liek Sam,Emma,Tay,Kaitlyn,Cailtin,Tristan,Tegan,Leah,Niki,Amy,DeeandruhhhSara,Sarah,Caro,Melissa ,Hmmm and maby alittle more people ?.... but like it sucks that alot of the people i have to start .....talking its gone to the point the if they truly want to stay friedns well they can make that affort >< it blows i knwo:(
so know i was thinking this wekened the only people who wanted to hang were Caitlin,Kaitlyn,Tegan,Sam,Emma,Deandruh , like i was like boyyah :) , but k,c,t wanted to party and i was liek not after taliking to Maryse on thursday i was and still am ery emotionally unstabalised>< ... emma and sam wanted to go CHAPTERS<# gahh i love , and dee and i wanted to go shopping , but shes going with her mom today :( maby ill spot her in bayshore (hopefully shes at bayshore) lmao lmao , or elses ill be lookoig for a ghost ><

Peace and love bitchess ,
Maree <3

Obsession

If you want me to listen whisper
If you want me to run just walk
Wrap your name in lace and leather
I can hear you
You don't need to talk

Let us make thousand mistakes
Cause we will never learn

You're my obsession
My fetish, my religion
My confusion, my confession
The one I want tonight
You are my obsession
The question and conclusion
You are, you are, you are
My fetish you are

You can kiss me with your torture
Tie me up to golden chains
Leave me beggin undercover
Wrong or right
It's all a role play

Let us make a thousand mistakes
We will never learn
My obsession : Cinema bizarre


Wensday , the middle day , the day that usually finishes befor it can even start ,well then... so today i was loking over my planner , yes i have a planner , i have to , theres is just so many people to see , to hang , to hookup with and so little time , and add in my job , oh and my babysitting ....then add the people i wish to see more then others, saddly i barely see my best frands ..well sam and emma and tay i see often , but its not enought ><... croline , well all i can say is that thank god for unlimitted texting and no minutes after 9 cuz were none stop on the p[hone togetehr:P...and like gahh its panick if i havent tlaked ot her atlest once during the day , might seem drastic , but she feels worse, if i havent replied to a text sent after ten minutes she calls ><...how i love my love :)..then theres Melee, saddly shes horrible at keeping in touch :( even tho were best friends.. but i try to clal her atlest once a week , wich blows cuz i wanan tlak to her more but you know , not to push it ... and theres alos Nae , saddly i talk to her maby once every know and then on msn...wich blows , cuz well we were so close and then bam school starts and well yeh...no details.....and well theres also my friends that i tlak to somet9mes alot more than i tlak to melee or nae..o.O scary i know and it blows , like kailtyn , caitlin ,tristan,amy,leah,raizel,niki,sarah,sara, ect..too many but saddly sometimesi tlak to them more then i tlak to my bestf riends :(... but its also an aweosme things cuz i know no matter what i haev someone there for me:)... okay so on a more umm Maree note..... me and someone , i cannot put any names only certain people know about him , and yes he does go to west ><... well we've been getting close, and last year he was like one of my clossest homo's ><... ahaha its a joke , and no i am not a homofobic...so yeh as i was going on , we've been talking alot lately about going to the next level , and this weekend we will , im nervous cuz i don't wanna fall for him , but being friedns with benefits is going to be hard , i think.... cuz well were such good friends , and liker hes really cute and shit ... but i dont know why im scared and nervous , i feel like i almost like him in a bf kinda way o.O.... but yeh , right now im waisting time cuz we were talking on msn , but he had to go do something ... probly jack off ...haha EW , joking , god i hope he doesn't read this , i might kill myself if he does , worst part is it wouldn't surprise me , cuz he might seem like a jerk or like a sexual perv( well that he is but thats why i love him) haha , but like he's really a great guy:)... saddly tho , no one knows except , Emma,Sam,Caro,Niki.... hahaha Niki's reaction was the funniest i must say " WHAT, WAIT , WHAT?!?!?! OW, EWWW ><..WELL...NO ...MAREE!!!!" Funny i know... Emma's was a more sensitive to me reaction ( <3) Sam was like " O.o , are u being serious?" ....well he is back online good night my babay makerts

Pce&Love
Maree

Walked home

yes it is the famous omg u walked home o.O.... hahah , so i just got out of the hottest shower known to man kind , the tower of water splashing my every essence , aniwais , why am i telling you this you may ask..werll i walked home with a sprained ankle and a t-shirt ..fun, i know your totally jealous , well im way to exausted to write but i thought i'd let you know , who ever you are:P oh and it only took my an hour and fifteen minutes to walk home , awesome aint it?

Pce&Love
maree

Carp Faiiiir

Yeeeeehaw , yeh thats the only hick sound you shall ever hear me say ><.... anywais , last night i went to carp fair with Tay,Emma :) and well everyone i saw there technically so lets see people who tackled me was , Amy,Jamie,Pat,Niki,Barbie girl ( forget her name) , people who hugged me , ah fuck this migt be looong , Natahniel,Peanut,Daniel,Warren,Amy,Sawer?, Cheeks,hairy nipples,Chad,Jess,Allie,Gabby ,Kayla,Leah,Raizel,James(shorty),Deeandruh,Catie,Caitlin,Kailtyn,Tegan,Riley ( omg omg i finally met the one and only , shes actually very tall , but omg gorgeous , teehee ), Sarah,OMFG too many too many!!!! i quit ><.... and i saw some people who were either drunk high or both , those people i will not mention they dont sdeserve it , like respect goodbye much ? lmao , like i was like why would u doo that?? dumbasses, anywais , soo Gavitron,Stand up swirl thing , Polar express, 1001 Nachts , Ferris Wheel ,Strawberries and sex , those were amazing , oupps sex ><...hahahaha it was a jolly old time and omg i met Duncan , the one penis i havent touched as he says ><... lmao he was hilarious , we tlaked alkot , hes a very horny boyy anywais .... sand i wrote PENIS =LOVE on his van window :) it was written witha broken glow stick juice, mouahahahahaha , lmao , im an evil genuise, and i won a pity prize wooot:) ... we played and this game , and i spent 10$ cuz i truly wanted the puppy stuffy , and wehn he's like another game ( may i say he was FRENCH , yah beat that :)...)....i was like no sry , then hes like , why did u keep playing ?... and i was like ( points to puppy) and he gave it to me!!! yay :)...... lol , anywais i'm a city girl lost in the fields and hay , someday i might find my way back to the downtown core , but for now hick fairs and pity teddy's is all i need :)

Pce&Love
Maree

Everybody move

C'mon and move your body, move your body body
C'mon everybody, everybody move your body

No, no body stop e-verybody move
Get up and dance, get up and dance
Move your body b-b-body
No, nobody stop e-verybody move
Get up and dance g-get up and dance
Move your body b-b-body

It's going down tonight
The ladies looking right
Dressed up with fancy shoes
Tight jeans and sweet perfume
The lines around the block
But we just walk right up
We're here to make a scene
Cause were livin the dream
Tonight, tonight, were gonna do it right so
G-Get up and dance : Faber Drive <3><... im acutally pumped!!!! okay so im obssesed without Faber's new stuff it's amazing , and i got an early copy of their new cd WOOT:) , thats how awesome it is to have a cousin in the business :) he said its my belated b-day present since hes like 5 months late lmao , sooo yeh ... and tomorrow its maby carp fair again , or lansdown park , or Hull yay:) and im planning to spend all my weekend with my bestest loves :) Emmi,Sam,Tay,Caro :).... and im hopefully seing the rest at carp fair aka Caitlin,Kaitlin,ect...lmao couldnt care know im too hyper to write names down ><... so me and Emmi are going to go for our tattoo appointement this weekend also , its to finalise a price, where and how biug and then place on what date we want it done:).... can't wait:)
p.s the pic is from when the Latency and Faber Drive were at the Ex taken by yours truly <3

Breathe

I'm paving new ground
Won't see you around
I'd love to burn this town.
I'm watching it drown
Watch it drown.
If you please
Excuse me while I breathe in
I feel that now this room is getting smaller as we speak
When I'm gone
What will you be thinking?
Will you find this place is just too hard for you to breathe in?
It's too hard for me.
I can feel
Every word this town has spoken
Can't you see
All the things they wouldn't let us be?
Breathe : the latency

Shabammmmmm , its wensday , finally only 2 days till the weekend :) it's carp fair weekend ( excitement??) , hahahaha im no hick imma city girl , Quebec city to eb exact ><.... and well i love things like the carnival and Huge things , but carp fair wasn't my type , it was fun do not get me wrong but eh, i couldnt care less , the only reason im going is because im seing some old fwends there:) and were getting CRUNK , yeh Me partying , u know it , haha all sumemr i was like nahh fuck parties but it's cuz it isn't my age group it was the youngings, ahah joking , but it wasn't like fun , itt was gay , like omg lets all get drunk , puke and pasas out , haha i like the more lets drink , not now our name and fuck kinda parties , wow imma slut ><... i was joking , i like the "fun" parties ><><... haha if u get my drift :).... and oh man i havent in sooo long im soo happy he wants to ><..... so yeh and well my dad wants me to invite a friend to come with us to the biggest thing ever at landsdown pak its like shopping mania this weekend , but i dont know who to ask , i would ask Caroline , but the odds of her coming are slim to none , Nae is probly planned with her friends , and well im sure Caitlin is none stop at the fair all weekend ....gahhhh , Fml.... but you know what speaking of Nae and Caitlin , i knew we would drift , but to the point that i feel like im a bother... ouch much?... like Caitlin texts me once every few days ( obviously we talk for a while><) but i havent heard from anyone eleze no one else texts me :(.... it sucks , i feel like everyonje from west isn't part of my lovers anymore.... does it hurt yes, whats gonna happen?...god knows , im probly just gonna turn my head and get over them :(... lmao.... like seriously i feel like even my best friedns artent there for me these days... fuck my life ><

Pce&Love
Maree

Cha-Ching

It started on the Real World
A hot tube full of hot girls
Grindin' every frat boy and freak

Line up all the Idols
Who paint on phony smiles
Tryin' to ride the fast track for free

Who's the Biggest Looser
I'll bust the biggest boozer
Bigger ratings for MTV

All the sole Survivors
Still stranded on the island
Lying through their teeth for money

So everybody dance, everybody sing!
If you wanna go far, if you wanna be a star
Yeah we can swing it, Cha-Ching
When you take off all your clothes, when you strike a Play Boy pose
If you wanna go far, if you wanna be a star
Then you gotta bring it, Cha-Ching

Cha-Ching by Hedley :)


Today has been an akwardly eventfull day ,i worked 7 to 12... then my dad picked me up , we went to the clinic for his eye stuff , well me and my mom went to carlingwood to shop while he waits and does the ey exam stuff, i bought this awesome journal thing made out of Panda poo , yes panda poo , might sounds gross but whatever right?...its really cool looking and awesomely unique:), after that we went to metro with a blind daddy , funny i must say , the eye drops had an effect and a half on him ><...and at the metro i saw Scott Sewell :) i see him once in a blue moon , but for some odd reason today when i saw him it was like taking a plugde into cold water on a hot steamy day , it was refreshing and it made me feel extremely girly and happy to see him , and we talked a little , planned to hang out soon wich is good , and i think that us being friends might work this time aorund , there won't be any Alicya telling us shit froim both sides ><...and he did look extremely hawt today ...oh no...oh god..... do i have a crush ?? o.O....... moving on befopr i say something again ..lmao.....so now im home thinking , and i finalized my tattoo , wich i already told Nae bout and Emma and obviously my rents, its 2 Bows on each wrist with Maryse , and Josh ritten on them :).... Maryse is my 14 year old sister ( i haven't seen her in 5 years saddly).... and Josh my 13 year old brother , who lives with me><... and is currently in GERMANY, i know the one country in the world he goes to that i liiiive to visit again someday ... gahhhhhhh , anywais , this weekend is carp fair , i am suppost to go , but umm , im might not.... so i leave it at this to my readers haha well to myself i guess ><....Carp fair...no carp fair????

Pce&Love
Maree

Septummmmmmm

omg , my best friends birthdya is coming up :).... immm soo pumped for it imma get her the best gift ever and a piercing ><..... i can't say what im getting her because i think she may read my blog ><.... she wants to get her vertical sternum , i say thats dumb :).... lmao , cuz her mom would trip balls at me o.O.... and it's enough that she thinks im the one who like killed Nae on the first week of school last year by saying what you lookiong at bitch ?... ohh boyyy , but it's cuz it was hell week , and i hated it trust me , but being a grade 12 at the time if you didnt atlest say something to a grade nine you were like an outcast :(... wich i was anywais:(.....other than that i became best friends with " who u looking at bitch gilr" lmao.....so yeh , and at her b-day imma get my septum , lmao whyy not , right?....and gosh today i started work at 7:15 , yes very gay .... and i finished at 12..... it was really long because im sick and things seem alot longer when your sick .... so i wanted to knpow my hours for the week and guess what they ddint write anything , so i was like SWEET:).... but in case i asked what are my hours and days.... they said "i don't know...." DUMBASS much??... so im going to call tonight and ask again if i get the same responce im not going into work :)... lmao
well my chickenfingers are ready....

Can i Smile?

soo yesterday i had a girls night , well tristan was there but it';s all good he's girly enough to be called a girl at this point ><.... we were all suppost to go to hockey sushi , but Tegan and Nae dont enjoy it , and Caitlin,Caroline Jacci,couldnt come:(...so we went to lone star..wich wasnt all that great to be honest, but i was happy to be around my close friends , so when we got back Kaitlyn came and joined us wich was fabuloso :)... we all went and tried to rent miss march and college but the chick and the grocery didnt beleive i was eighteen , like WTF???.... so then we left went to mccuen ( written wrong deal with it><) and rented the unborn and pineaple express , the unborn was very jumpy , but really lame in the end...pineaple express we wacthed 30 minutes of it and stopped it was really lamoooo :).... so we went upstairs and ecicded the sleeping arrengements , but for some odd reason me and kaitlyn were umm , well no one wanted to be with us , and yes we both wantd to be like k , well we shall sleep togetehjr but kaitlyn cant sleep with someone who snoers :(... aka me .... ugh i hate it:(.... makes me feel akaward...nywais so yeh ppl were making it a HUGE deal to sleep in the same room as us :(... and like i got upset still am actualy but nywais not the point , so then katlyn slept in mah bed with renae, and tristan and tegan my brothers room ... i on the other hand was on a couch :).... but eventually ppl didnt care i went in my bed with a past out renae , she was snoring wichj was really funny , and kaitlyn went with the others.... so when morning came i wasn't in a good mood ... and well im still not , cuz Caroline on of my childhood best friends was suppost to come this weekend and meet everyone and i had all this awesome shit to do with her , but she bailed on me , surprised no... disapointed yes....and now im sitting alone at home wondering what to do with myself....my comfort ... an ex boyfriend on the internet chatting away and telling me how much he misses the bitch from town :(... lmao.... but yeh Nae had sort of invited me over , but then megan called ...and well she invited megan over instead ... so i was like ouch much ??... tho she said i couldnt come cuz her parents were sick and shit wich sucks , but then i log on to fcebook..... and her status clearly states that meghan was over ..... yes i feel hurt but i was already hurtingalot today and lately , i feel like giving up again, but atlest ive learned not to run away ... but to actually try to make things better , but right now all i need is the comfort of friends and family , wich neither is here , and neither actually care at the moment.... my eyes are once againa bloodshot red and puffy , my cheeks stained rose , and red lips, i keep asking myself if being happy is to much to ask....

Nap Time

sooo i just woke up for a looong nap , havent been feeling my best , i got really sick this morning ,but i had to go to work...figures right..... so i went to work , and when i got home i tried to eat...didnt go over to weel :(..and i went to bed at around 2...it is now about 5:40.... why am i up you ask.... well my dumbass of a mom decided she wanted to have loud music while she cooked :(.... sdo now im up , this time i only got sick twice instead of like 4937497 times :P.... so tomoorrroooow is going to be superfrajalasticexpicaladocious kinda day , yes i know i used the longest work veerrr:P.... but thats cuz im seeing some of my really good friends....( i have a thermometer in my mouiht oh joy).... anywais as i was saying ... tomorrow friends :):):):)... so yeh about 6 of my friends are coming over , and we are going out to this new sushi place called Hockey Sushi , ( yes name very weird ).. but it's going to be super fun:):):)... what suskcs is that i don't have myu wonderful camera so i can't take pictures , i sure do hope that one of them brings a camera><.....

well im off to beddy byes

Pce&love
Maree

Blissful Tears

This once was a smile
you took that away
your smirk leeding me astray
the touch leaving me with
Blissful tears

i couldnt change my mind
i couldn't even try
losing you was like everything i wished had gone into the fire
lost in the ashes
i will try to find
those memories that i had to hide
blisstering the night sky

The smile on your lips
feeling up my hips
let it go
let it go
let it go
i can't take it
let's just loose it
ive gone to far to back out now

Broken hearts and shattered glass
all i need was to make fast
leaving you
leaving us
leaving everything behind
can't even try to describe
the pain i feel inside
all that comes out
is blissfull tears

Butterflies in mah stomach

You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Lit up the world as I fell asleep
Cuz they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude, but I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe
That planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cuz everything is never as it seems

Cuz I get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they try to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)
Fireflies : Owl City

so today has been an over all great day , me and my best friend are okay , might be rufted up or full of new scars but they shall heal , love is war ><.... so right now im home alone , and thinking fuck , i have a crush on my neiighbor -_-.... i just got back from having yummy lazagna at his house , my family and his family are like inserepable , except me and him , we can tlak for hours , liek tyhe opther night , but when it's like our parents plus us , it's akaward it feels like im meeting my Bf's parents type akward... but im sure he's just being nice to me and doesnt like me , but the other night i was sitting alone outside , i had been crying , but im sure he didnt know that, and he came and sat beside me , we chatted about alot of stuff , until my dad came out and said hey , its past 11:30 ... lmao.... he isn't the hottest guy but he is really cute :)... and he's really genuinely nice , and he has an amazing smile and omg tells the best jokes..... saddly i probly don't have a chance, and tonight well i was gonna ask him after supper "hey would u like to go rent a movie and watch it together" , but i chickened out , cuz he was all into the NFL , fml -_-...maby some other day ill get the cvourage to ask him to hang ><

Pce&Love

Automatic

You're automatic,
And your heart's like an engine
I die with every beat
You're automatic,
And your voice is electric
Why do I still believe?

It's automatic
Everywhere in your letter
A lie that makes me bleed
It's automatic
When you say things get better
But they never...

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

It's automatic,
Counting cars on a crossroad
They come and go like you
It's automatic,
Watching faces I don't know
Erase the face of you

It's automatic
Systematic
So traumatic
You're automatic

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you

Automatic
Automatic
Automatic
Automatic

Each step you make
Each breath you take
Your heart. Your soul.
Remote-controlled
This life is so sick
You're automatic to me

(Love in you)
(Love in you)
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you

There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
There's no real love in you
Why do I keep loving you?

Automatic
(There's no real)
Automatic
(Love in you)
Automatic
(Why do I)
Automatic
(Keep loving you?)
Automatic...
Automatic : Tokio Hotel

okay i know it';s been like the 34973 post in a few days , but i have alot on my mind, what can is ay ? :Pwell today as i think i already tlaked about was me not getting to my work today...but also ive listened to a whole lotta music today....and it's making me feel empty , like music used to help me and shit through anything but today , it made me feel like am alone....my heart has always and will alaways have a void , it's because of my birth mom , my sister and a special freind i ost along time ago , but obviously that doesn't stop me fromdoing everyday things....but todya it made me cry alot, ive actually cried alot lately , caca burn..... oh well just a quick hello....and hopefully this weekend i can see one or two friends and they can cheer me up :)

Pce&Love
Maree

Never try to Bike to work

so today , i was suppost to work my usual shift wich is 9-12...or 9-1 depends on my bosses mood i guess ><... so my friend K.M takes her bike to work...god knows how she manages, i must be the most outta shap person alive, cuz well i was halfway up the hill , when my ankle decide to twist and huirt like a bitch..... and i tried not to stop but man it hurt so bad, i didn't notice but i was also laugh crying , yes laugh cryin , that is what i do when i get hurt, i try to laugh it off , but i might end up crying cuz the pain hurts me alot :(... so i crawled my ass back home , tried my neighbor to see if she could drive me , no responce .... so i called my boss , and told them the storie tho i added i might be going to the doctors to check it up...LIE .... but i was always told u should push on it alittle so they don't give you shit :)....so now im blogging instead of working :( actually i should be happy right?... well iom not , cuz myrents are being duchers , i called my dad to tell him what hapened and he goe s " SIGHHHHHHH!!!! , okay i guess u tried" like are you fucking kidding me , they are the ones who said that when i get a job they will make sure i get there and back , they havent driven me once!!!!!!, i asked my 2 neighbors, and my freidn Jacci.... so know i have to think what am i going to do for tomorrow ?!?!?!?!?!... i might as well kill myself while im ahead .....

Pce&Love
Maree

Calm your nerves now
And dont worry
Just breathe
Are you sure now
Don't bother packing
Let's just leave
Said they wanted change
I hope that you remain the same
To show that this is not a game
Let's end this tragedy today

Now take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that i know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over

Lay down with me
And let me hold you, baby just breathe
This is ending
We will get through eventually
Said they wanted change
I hope that you remain the same
To show that this is not a game
Let's end this tragedy today

Take my hand and we will run away
Down to this place that i know
How did this night become the enemy
It's over, it's over, it's over now

we won't be a part of
we won't be a part of this
we won't be a part of
we won't we won't
Take my hand : The Cab Ft Hey Monday



sooooo the weekend soon to be :) , i decided fuck it im not making plans people wanna hang they can call , tho i made plans with Emma and Sam :):):):) i miss Teresa , Stef Wu,Charity ,Alexis,Dee, ect...ughh everyone left to go to college , it's a very loud wake up call let me tell you. ...... atlest Emma and Sam and Tay aren't soo far( still here).... and i have my lovers at West, but i probly won't see any of them anytime soon :(... oh well... in other news im obsessed with this song , its been playing in my head for the past 2 weeks , since i bought the new The cab Ep..and about 12 other cds , i went shopping with my pay check, and it was like hmm 150$ about??... and this one coming up should be double Woot , tho now im starting the half and half , half goes to my bank acount (savings = no touchie ) and the other half into my chekcing accoiut( i can use) Woot :P... so the song has made me cry , smile and dance..... but it's making me feel lonely... my hearts been torn for the past year and a half , ive lied to myseld about certain feelings , but the breakup i never got over:(... and now god knows if me and Vez are even freidns, we barely tlak on msn , no more phone calls , no more text barely ...ugh .... and on top of things , one of my bff's is having the joy of having like 3 guys after her , well living near downtown helps right??..lmao , well today me and her tlaked b4efor work and during work , we each worked from 9-1 ><... so we had a omg 3 hourts to go type thing ><..... oh well iim hoping i get a call soon from a certain Bff :)

Pce&Love
Maree

The Bitch is Back

my tittle says it all >< .... I've come to realise this past 2 years has changed me emensfolly ....if thats how u write that word>< .... well this weekend was totally AWESOME , i saw Melee,my cousin and his Gf , and all his geeky friends tho i love them, becausethey make me feel like im cool , nahh just kidding tho they are what you would "classyfy" as nerds or geeks, they are all about games,and star trek , my cousin loves games but he is more into anime and manga ><... nywais so it was an akwardly awesome party , we even had a bonfire at 2 am ><.... tho it was freezy playing drunk volley ball round midnight, hence why i am sick :(.... so yeh and me and melee and my cousin were i think the only ones not drunk , wait no ...luc and that other guy werent either, i think ?.... but yeh me and luc had this convo about the world and plastic? ... he was tyhe cute guy ><.... hahahaha , and Marie(seb's gf) and Emilie and luc and melee and i had another convo about bears...diapers...and rainbows...weird i know , but i loved it :P .... apart from me getting sick it was an awesome weekend oh and i got some new books, at chapters with melee , we spent a grand total of 70$ , wow i know .... and i got some C.D's omg omg omg awesome ones ><.... so in about 10 minutes i need to start walking towards Jo's house, my hairdresser wich i must say i loooove to death , she is one of the most happiest people i know :).... she is making my hair look awesome :).... and then at 2:30 i need to go to work , :(.... i wanna find a joib in the city but for now i guess it shall doe ><.... oh and this weekend well saturday i am planning my annual MAKEOVER party, well it's more of a truth or dare to the extreme party now , but when i used to livein Q-Town it was makeovers ><.... so my guest list... very selective only about max 10 of my closest friends :)..oh and P.S i forgot my dumb camera at melee's FUCK my life...cuz i probly won't see her until , um the anime convention at the end of octovber :(

Pce&Love
Maree

kfhndsjgrf

Badamamamamamamamamamama , well then spazm over>< .... so im heading to Melee's WOOTTTTTTTT, and tomorrow is my couzin Seb's birthday partay, tho we shall be the youngest there we are goingggg:) i must say this is going to be an aweome weekend :P, and maby tomorrow i might get a new percing ,, ** cough spetum cough**anywaiss, i went to West Carleton yesterday to say HIII to my friends , omg ive missed them soo much , so i got Tackled in a boob hug by Caitlin D :), screamed in tha ears with love by Niki and Sara B , must say bye bye eardrum but it felt good to see those two maniacs again , tho i see niki like almosyt like crazy often ( hence i pratically live at her and Sam's) , adn then i got tristan,tegan,and that gang in a group hug , tho tristan won thehugging competition ppl were having , Caitlin said we hugged for like 10 minutes>< .... annd i saw Pat , Jamie, Cara , Kayla , hmmmm oh and Nae and Megan , Sarah Nagy ,Chris her bf, they are sooo cuute><... and hmm i saw Amy,Raizel and Leah , wow ...and thats justa start , is hall continue this once im in HULL, pce for now
Peace & Sex
Maree

Got the Job

wooohoooo , i just got a job :)... im so happy :)...my rents are finally going to get off my back about getting a job :)...and this weekend I'm going to the Hot air balloon festival with Melee :), so ecited i must say !! liek ive never been to that festival before , wait yes i did , last summer to se Tokio Hotel in Montreal , wait was that the same festival , crap i cannot remeber -_-...anywais , so today wasn't that much of a productive day other than getting the job , going out for a walk with Josh and realising i do not feel safe in a Wasp infested home ><...lmao

Pce&Love
Maree

YAYYYY

sooo , previous to my other post's this past few days this one is positive:P..... me and my best friedn are backkk , be careful we do cause trouble><... oh man did that make my day oe what, and i finally took a decent pic of my new hair , cuz ive been sick since ive gotten it done :(... so todya i put on makreup did my hair funyn thing it only took 5 minutes to do , well its becasue i didnt tease or starighten completely ><.... anywais ... Dee came over , it was good to see her and we rented a movie wich i do NOT recommend i am even avoiding the name><... anywais thats my post for now .... just an update >,>........ haha looks like a nose:P

Ignorance is Bliss

You treat me just like another stranger.
Well it's nice to meet you sir.
I guess I'll go.
I best be on my way out.

Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.
Ignorance is your new best friend.

Ignorance : Paramore

sooo today has been a new day , and i feel like nothing can stop me , i have an interview at CHAPTERSSSSSS, yes chapters , it was an online application , and an online interview but im hoping for a call to say i got the job omg like omg omg omg!!!! if i get this job my problems are somwhat over:)..... so on the bestfriend fight news, nothing, i miss her , but im pushing away , until she forgives me , my dad said not to push away to much , ( in the pat i ould get mad and never talk to that person again cuz i wopuldnt caree, or i would push away , but then when the person would come back , i'd be over it completely....) wich sucks so he said to try not to completely let go, but ti's hard, but im changing for her , she is my best friend so i shouldn't just throw away our bestfriendship , lmao i love her to much to do that , but it's hard at the moment not to go on msn and be like OMG OMG CHAPTERS ME CHAP[TERS, but w.e..... so i was looking up some college's for hairstyling for next september, yes it's early but i wanna know what im expected , and hte amount $$$$ lmao , hopefully i can save enought... and my daddyy said that it can be anywhwere in canada :)....hence i don't think he cares, but i was thinking either B.C ( they have the #1 beauty school in Canada) , but again i think and i don't want to be away from here...so it's out, byt maby Nova scotia?...wait thats far too :(... fack , the third best in canada is in montreal:) and thats the one ive been wishing to go to since grade 7 ><.... but i don't know what i would do without my friends here:(.... so i might just go to this one beauty school in orleans .... wait is it in orleans?...gah i can't remeber , theres also one in HULL :) wich is french = love, and it's just a quick drive bck to the bay , if i live in the plateau ( hence Melee) but anywais i was looking and it's scary but a good type of scary you know.... oh well i shall resume my itunes shopping , ( i keep downloading awesome new bands i find) ... oh and tonight Dee is coming over :), omg ive missed her cute little red hair:).... i havent seen her since Grad, wich was 2 months ago o.O.... man ... and what's even more depressing is that Wu and Cherry is moving to Toronto tomorrow :(.... i cried last nigth when i heard the news:(....i shall miss them terribly but they said on vacation they shall come back home :) p.s the image was taken about 2 weeks ago when Chantale,Becca,Rob invited me and josh to the famr to see their horses , and well i fell in love with this lovely puppy itsa a ponmerian just liek the type off dog im getting for my moveout present to myself , which probly wont be for another year ><.... but yes i love her:)

Pce&Love
Maree

In touch

sooo , i think ive just blown a record, ive written about 8 songs in the past two days , ......raw emotion always gave me awesome creativity.... but somehow i couln't care less anymore.... ive been fighting wiht my best friend for the past few days , and well i did some pretty shady things, i lied , and i got kicked out , freaked out about it , and then my rents said they were mad and they didn't mean it so i got over it , they seem to quick me out now about once every month , i shouldn't take it to hear anymmore , but everyone knows that after being kicked out by my mom in grade nine , well i sort of am very sensitive to the mention of it , alot of people get mad , or stop being friends cuz i freak out and usually plan to run to quebec or melanie's .... but thats my comfort zone , thats where i know ill always be wanted no matter what , and i could of added my best friend's place , but at the moment we aren't talking , i should try to apologises as much as i can , but i feel like the more i try the less i have a chance to be friends again ... so basically ive been feeling liek a fucking falior....and to top things of my bitch of a step mom keeps telling me that im just another fucking princess with an attitude... like Fuck , and then my dad wonder's why i sliced open again , that weird realse sort of comforts me , intense crying helps too or writing , but the one thing i shouldn't doe i have done , and it felt great , might regret it later on , but ohhh man the liquid warmth of it can make any pain leave ,well atlest for a while until i realese my problems are still stairing back at me....

p.s the doggy is my love i want her , and look at my amazing photo skills ><

War&Hate
Maree

August 31 2009

Il Etait un petit navire
Il etait un petit navire
Qui n'avait j'a j'a j'amais naviguer
Qui n'avait j'a j'a j'amais naviguer
oh er oh er

Micheline Guertin , chanson pour sa fille Marianne <3


Gooodddd morning , wow this mst be one of the earliest mornings ive seen all summer, i heard the birds sings, and felt the warm sunshine in my bedroom , the only thing thats keeping me awake , coffee -_-... so one of my bestiiieesss Sam just got a blog , and yes i know i shouldn't brag but , i think this might be pretty awesome , she is an awesome ninjka , but don't spread the word cuz i wouldnt want people klnmowing she's a ninja ><.... anywhoozers , she isn't much of a bloggiest , i think i just invented a new word WOOT , anywais as i was saying she isnt much of a blogger , but i think that having a blog might be awesome for her , technically she could always use it to write down idea's for fanfics, and herreview\critic opf other fanfics and she could also use it for common venting , i love to blog , it's become an obssession ><.... so last night i had well a moment , for the past 3 nights ive cried myself to sleep , not something i want to brag about obviously , but ... last night i realised something , that ive been crying empty tears , out for a bad fight with a best friend , or so called best friend?...i don't think she really wants top eb friend anymore...or she already hates me , god only knows , seing as she's shuned me out ... but last night i felt as if i lost somehting , i felt like when i lost my grand-mama , i've cried alot in my life , but these past few days i don't know why but it makes me feel empty and useless.... i feel like i couldn't giver a crap , but then i remembered that i've been crying like this for the passt 3 years , missing my mom , and little sister,and my grandparents ... and last night i felt like i needed my best friend there cuz the shaky feeling of being lost had found my lonely tears and my crying sore , but saddly i've lost that.... so know i am here thinking of what tod o with myself...i have plenty of friedns , well sort of but my main group consist of Nae,Melee,Sam,Emma,Caro,.....and thats about it .... the others are just friends or accaintences..... to be honest these five are what give me that amazing scaryness about me ><

Pce&Love
Maree

Ruined

so far i can say ,
ive ruined all in my way
chaging my path
won't change the past
relieving memories haunt me from last
nightmares unfold before my eyes
i can't stop the motion of these tears
broken hearts and unhold souls cry out
they want to save me
but they can't
they must let me be

Crying out for you
has only left me screaming of loneliness
lost touch won't do
trying to figure out this mess
isn't going to fix the problem


I'm alone in this world
without you i am another girl
trying to forget my mistakes
learning wich road to take
but never leaving your memories behind

T.M.N.T

bahahahahahaha , so i just came back from one of my best friedns house Emma :) , i was with her and Sam another bestf riend ><.... so yesterday i got my hair done with Sam , and wow , what a differnece , she has bangs , well side bangs and layers, she looks sooo gorgeous , not that she wasnt or anything but i truly love it!!!! and well i got my hair done as well , i got an awesome transformation of the hair i must say , bye bye boring "emo" look , lmao ...im so sick of seingg wannabe's lm,ao......oh well , anywais after getting or hair done me and Sam headed over to Emma's for a fun packed girls Bonfire night , and Emma had just bought this collectors edition with all four movies of the Teenage Mutant Ninja Turltes with masks with it , so we had to put on the mask's , obviously i was Donnatello , he and i are one ><.... later that evening we headed out to the bonfire fire pit and made a massive fire , for a good 3 hours we chatted roasted marshamallows and played with fire , then cam ein and watched Hannah Montanna the movie ><... yes i said H.M the movie , but to be honest i love that movie i just dont like "Miley cyrus " , and then around 2 went to bed... Today , we woke up pretty early it was ten am , we ate blueberry muffins for breakfast and watched the first four episodes of NCIS season one , and now i am home, feeling sick in the stomach , aka the blueberrys made me feel sick like hell!!! :(.... oh well , and on September 5 i am leaving :) leaving for montreal with Melaniie , oone of my best friends yet again and my "little sister" teehe , i got a text yesterday saying she was back , must say thats like the best news ive had in a while :P.... ive missed her so much , so yeh sept 5 bye bye Constance bay and Hello Melee :):):)

Pce&Love
Maree

Inglorious Basterds

Inglorious Bastards = best movie everrrrrr:)...and today is Niki's birthday , well technically yesterday since we are now the 26 , wow .... tomorrow shall eb my mom's birthdya :(... and a month ago it had been 3 years in total since well the last time i saw her face to face.... it hurts to think that ... because i miss my mom , and sister...and i ahve a half brother now... wow...how things change , wel;l so far since i last wrote i saw Renae' gosh we had a blast..and um unexpected akwardness happened...but anywais it's all good , we got some tention outta our systems ><... nywais and well i went to Sam's and Niki's for niki's birthdya adn Daniel ( her bf) adn SaraB came as well , to see inglorious bastards , wich i must say yuo need to see , or else you are mising an amazing movie my friend ><... and in 3 days Melee comes back :) Im so excited i've missed her so damn much , like i havent seen her in forveer , well a month or so but STILLLL.... and on thursday im hopefully getting my hair done , i hope sooo , cuz i hate my roots its disgusting it makes me look liek i have a greasee ball on my head, or well .... so i have a slight delema , i like one of my closest guy friends Justin D, but one of my girl friends also lieks him, and she's sort fo ALOT hotter ,prettier and um cuter then me...and well .... i truly like him , ave liked him for the longest time , but im scared he doesnt and just ses me as a friend ( liek every other guy does) and liek sher instead, wich would be great for her...but obviously suck balls for me :(.... so i don't know what to do ... shoudl i tell him , or just play the nice friend that i usually am for guys ?....and saturday theres a point party and i was maby going to ask him if he wanted to go with me, i hope he says yes :)...but what if he says no , no big deal??... i duno , cuz me and him have been firends for 2 ears and ive always had feelings for him , and i don't know if he would feel the same , it sort of scares me cuz i don't want our friendship to be ruined by my feelings...

Pce&Lvoe
Maree

It's Britney Bitch

OMGGGGG :) BEST CONCERT EVERRRRR!!!! must say effects , show , freakshow :)... Britney spears is one of my idols since i've been a kid and last night she made me realise how big of an influence her music has had on me :) like she is one of the most talented people out there, she is an amazingg singer and dancer and profermer!!!!!!!! she showed us how wishes can come true , her Freakshow was one not to be missed , the acrobats , the eccentric dance moves and very unique scenes put on stage for every act of the song :) .... If you have one concert to live to see , better make sure it's the Britney spears circus tour!!!!! or elese you've lost :P.......She started the night with Circus and what an entry that was...she came down on stage from a fre circle thingy .... lol.... and she eneded the night with womenizer:)... the change of customes and the perfect dances was a top! My favorite song of the night must of been everytime , she was wearing this gorgooues short dress , and she was perched on this big umbrella swing , it was gorgeous , SHE was gorgeous !!! Britney spears Pop Princess <3...i shall write alot more about the conert tomorrow , but right now Caitlin is coming over:)

Pce&Love
Maree

Doo Whap

One day left t'ill the Britney Spears concert!!!!!! and im soo excited!!, so tomorrow i wake up , get in the shower.... then do my hair ...im a going full out tease tomorrow for my hair , like tadaaaa, and then big and bold makeup , my sneakers skinnies and a hot top and im off to one of the best concerts of my life :) and then Saturday I'm having a girls night with Caitlin D :)... ive missed her ugly face, kidding shes actually gorgeous!!!! then sunday im suppost to haev agirls night with Allie J and Nae...but i haven't heard from either :(... specially Nae... i called her 2 days ago...but she was suppost to call yesterdya..never did...so i left a message last night.... today i called 3 fucking times..left a message...no call back..like wtf???... so im pissed ...either she doesnt know i call or she;s avouiding me?.... and what ever.......

Pce&Love
Maree

Mosaic

Rules:
a. Type your answer to each of the questions below into Flickr Search (http://www.flickr.com/).
b. Using ONLY the first page, pick an image.
c. Copy and paste each of the URLs for the images into Mosaic Maker. Change rows to 3 and columns to 3 (http://bighugelabs.com/flickr/mosaic.php).
d. Save the image and post it on this note!
e. If you're tagged, pass it on.

The Questions:
1. What is your first name?
2. What is your favorite food?
3. What is your favorite color?
4. Favorite drink?
5. Dream vacation?
6. Favorite hobby?
7. What you want to be when you grow up?
8. What do you love most in life?
9. One word to describe you?

38 hours later

The sun has been soo good to us for the past 2 weeks :).... but today it rained ... it felt good >< ... everything was getting kinday dry , but lets hope the bright sunshine heat comes back tomorrow:).... well for the past few days things have been going pretty well , I went to Sam's last night ... thing is we never went to bed...and the night befor i had 4 hours of sleep , so is it okay to think that i may be sleep deprived ><, but i had a clever plan to make it AWESOME and my style of hair , you may call it what ever you like ( emo,scene,skater ect...) i couldn't care less of labels, but as i was saying i took the wig and reversed it ..meaning the mullet looking part wa sin the back of my head and the long hair in my face, i side banged it... and spike the mullet at the back of my head and VOILA !! Sam also did the spiking and side banging , teehe , and well it looked aweomse ... an early Bill Kaulitz :) , speaking of Bill , T.H (a.k.a for those who don't know my favorite band ) have realise an exclusive clip of their new song :)... i am soo happy it is actually descent , i was expecting a little more punk\rock out of them but no...they are going into a world of music that i dislike ....:( ... but that is okay , because i still love them very much , and their music :) i always will ....and maby that that song is just slightly different ill probably love it soon or later :) ... Omg annd in 3 days I;m seeing Britney spears in conceert!!!!! yay!!!!! , then tuesday I'm getting my hair done , well hopefully ...i booked the appointement .... but i need to ask my dad :S..... oh well im off to call Nae, cuz i miss that frily silly bestiie of mine:)
Pce&Love
Maree

Oops i did it again.....

its blazing heat outside:) im so happy summer has finnaly decided to come out of its shell to embrace us with the loving dose of heat and sunshine ..... these last few days haven't been all that exciting , but have been pretty good , i decided that I'm going to try and see what i can do to leave the city ...i HATE Ottawa , and well my dad says we can't go to quebec city...btu maby round october i'll go with him he said... but i shall be heading to montreal later next week.... I'm going to go visit this place i saw on the internet...sounds too good to be true kind of place.... but no alarms I'm NOT moving out just yet...maby after the new year :)....nywais , soo friday august 21 i shall be going to see the one and only BRITNEY SPEARS!!!!!!! , sdome may think that , that is lamer...but for me it's AWESOME:).... i grew up listening to her music and dancing along the fun beats , slowly grinding up as her music evolved into lyrical seductions >< ..... but omg I'm soo excited!!! , I'm going with Sam , Niki, Emma and .... i don't know if anyone else is going >< .... lmao!!! .... and next saturday I'm hanging out with Caitlin D , sooo pumped were going shopping together and omg , ive missed her alot!!! , this summer has made me realise how much people take friends for granted :(.... nywais im off to call a special best friend of mine ;)

Pce&Love
Maree

Head Ache

crap i hacvent written in about a week now -_-... so i fail for that simple reason ... and my best friend is grounded t'ill school starts for ehr :(... fuck... oh well on the brighter side ive been getting really close to an old friend Caitlin D.... me and her were really close until the night of my grad party...she ditched it to go see her (ex) bf at the time..... and well she was going to come see me at my party... but she ran into them and all this shit ahppened.... well just to say were over that... and were closer then ever...adn were trying to plan a girls night :)..... possibly next friday :):) Yay :P.... and well Jacci wanted me to go camping with her and andrew this weekend...short notice ...she called today...she wanted to leave today... and andrew's her bf...i would have basically been the 3 wheel...fun? no!,.,,,,, and right now i have the biggest head ache ever...well actually i had the biggest head ache..its sort of gone now :P....thank god...jeez it was a bugger:P.... an dwell i was suppost to call my cousin Vero on monday ( hence we are friday ...iwas suppost to call 4 days ago).... but ive had alot on my mind and that was sort of the last thiong.... but yeh i would love to go visit her Pat and Vez in quebec...but i need a job first lmao..... ill try to call her tomorrow and try to work something out for like a week or something in septemeber or october or even x-mas time :).... but not for this summer... cuz my friend Zelia is coming from Munich,Germany on the last week of august adn she will be staying at my place for a day or two :)... im sooooo excited to see her... she was one of myf irst friends at west carleton , she was an exchange student from germany , she was very different, like i was, and we became really close really ffast , but then she had to go back, and i haven't seen her since, so its been about 2 years :(.... time passes by so fast it's kinda really scary....nywais im off to dream about something more thanit is :)

Pce&Love
Maree

Fireworks :)

omgggg, okay ive been having the best 3 days everrrrr, i was at Renae's for 3 days , awesome right!!! , and well we went to get Dee her percing on saturday , funniest shit EVER , i think Nae was more scared or more freakd out then Dee, wich is HILARIOUS ..... and i got it all on the camra ( insert evil cakcle here) ..... and well Dee got her labret perced and it looks amazing on her!.... and Saturday night we went to the Casino ( au lac leamy) to see the Italy fire works :P ... best frraking fireworks ive ever seen , omg like it was almost might i sound corny magicl :) like i felt like ome , nyais ... Nae and i thought it would be the perfect date , sad story is that ...we didnt have any :(...lmao ..... but we all knwo who i would of loved to haev there ;) R.I.C.H ..lmao.... and we should also clareafy that i am over Colin ..he's a prune head for all im conserned ;p... so now im back home ...without Nae :(.... ugh i wish i ddint leave her house :(... first thing my mom said when i went throught the door was " hey just in tiem to do the dishes and cat liter" ...Fuck my life!!!!!!!..... oh well dreams can only last for so long right?

Pce&Love
Maree

My name is pogo , wanna jump on my stick?

hellooooo , wow long time since ive blogged..well 2 days ><... so im standing here beside this lovely girl named Jacci , shes a blonde... yep that says it all :).... and well last night Jacci, Sarah , Stef, Mac,Brit went for a 2 hour walk around the bay ...well we didnt walk much wich is kinda funny , but it was fun ... then Sarah and Jacci came back to my house... we ate chocolate...and Sarah broke ..well it was broken already but she ended its pain..the pain of Jacci's cell that has been dying for a while now... so tonight Jacci betetr eb getting a new phone :) cuz her phone is outta wack lmao... so im talking to my cousin form quebec .. on msn obvouisly..and they want me tyo go visit for a week befor the end of the summer..... yay ?....... nywais... im heading to Nae's round 8.. im pumped to see her... ohw ell goota go get ready ... and Jacci is leaving me ** cries in corner **
Pce&Loe
Maree

Birth Month

This si what my birth month says about me ;)

* Stubborn and hard-hearted
* Strong-willed and highly motivated
* Sharp thoughts
* Easily angered
* Attracts others and loves attention
* Deep feelings
* Beautiful physically and mentally
* Firm standpoint
* Easily influenced
* Needs no motivation
* Easily consoled
* Systematic (left brain)
* Loves to dream
* Strong clairvoyance
* Understanding
* Sickness usually in the ear and neck
* Good imagination
* Good debating skills
* Good physical
* Weak breathing
* Loves literature and the arts
* Loves travelling
* Dislike being at home
* Restless
* Hardworking
* High spirited
* Spendthrift

One Lust

run your hand throught my hair
let this breeze freeze the air
i wanna get to know
don't be afraid to touch
it might lust

lemme tell you this
i like to show
like it slow
let's start taking it off
just ripe it off
tear it up
look down now
i see how it ends

curving like a snake
i want you to penetrate
don't be scared
let everything loose
push it to the rythim
my pulse getting faster
your touch weakening me
it think you might be

the one
to love
thinking has gone out
all i can do is scream
shout
tell what its about
give know
faster please
take a breath
( haw haw haw)

fire burning touch
the one i can't leave out
touching me
wanting to be
one lust