Lets Play Pretend

I have been through a lot in my life, and Sunday night everything was almost taken away from me.... James and i went to the belvedere champlin lookout....and on our way back we missed a turn ... and went into a ditch. He was fine thank god for that , me on the other hand i have a gash on my head 5 staples ( equivalent of 8-12 stitches) , dislocated shoulder... and a lot of bruising on my neck and chest . We went to the hospital , where melee,Alicya,Garfit and my rents showed up , all the people i cared most in the world were around me . James and his rents left around 12:30 .. we had crashed at 9 , gotten to the hospital around 9:20 .... they leave , my rents left around 1:30 am.... and then at 2 we finally got into a room to see the doc but ambulances showed up and made us wait even more ( i was priority, minus ambulances).... so after waiting over 6 hours , we left the hospital and went to arnprior hospital , and they saw us the minute we came in , ad i got home around 6 am.... i looked like a csi crime seen harachio would be proud ! , i haven't slept or eaten since then , i eat and it comes back up , i sleep or close my eyes and all i see is the crash , and his face , the pain of his guilt eating him alive, kills me ... i wish i could take the guilt away i wish it never happened but it did , im healing slowly , but that night changed everything for me.


I'm not the one who wants to hurt you
Im not the one I'm not the one who wants to hurt you
you better find somebody else or get a hold of yourself

Your way to young to be broken
your way to young to fall apart
your way to young to play these games
but you better start

i forget who you used to be
the poison that was meant for me