Swing it all away

wow , tomorrow is the day we all say goodbye to a beloved calssmate,brother,son,friend...tomorrow is the day we celebrate his life , and cherish the moments shared.... it's going to be a sad day :(..... So yesterdayyy was amazing , lifted my spirirt up for a few hours:)... i went to the Rocky horror picture show thingy at the center, with Tay,Sam,Emma,Allan,Lindsay :) and i saw 3 lovely lovers of mine Kailtyn,Sarah and Riley:) it was a blast all 8 of us minus miss kaitlyn cuz she left early:( , but it was good to see that gorgeous smile of hers :)... so yah 8 of us if i counted right went outside to play in the kids structure WOOT:).... lmao , it was too funny Emma and Lindsay falling of the titertooter , Riley and the Mental boner, Me,Lindsay,Emma and Sarah's tire swing adventrue , saddly Emma Flew off o.O... very scary moment i must say , Dancing to dirty minded songs, slaping air asses at the same time , wow so many things so litttle time><... and the best part of all , swinging :):):):):):):):) it was the bestest ><... lmao, anywais today im going into centrum with hopefully Sam and Lindsay:) Wootttt:) and getting new books, yes i understand that my librairy is full as it is but i can deal with more books i live on fictional characters lives bfefore my eyes><... if that makes anysense to you my readahs :) , if i have any readers>< lol , wow i probly dont... know i feel sad , Gahhhhhh , anywais , so tomorrow Emma,Stef and possibly Nae are heading to Cam's funeral :(.... i can't put my mind that mister party boy has passed away :(... like he was such a lively perosan :(.... but maby the heavens needed more partying than we did , and they took the est of the best :)..... I love you Cam Rip <3


Forever remeber his smile and laughter , for ones heart may always woner how can one so alive can pass away

Rest in peace Cam Harvey <3

Cameron Harvey , wow , the party king and the all around amazing guy ...has past away ... i didn't know him personnaly , i only wnet to school , prom and graduated with him , and went to a few parties that he was gladdly enjoying :)... to young to be gone , yet such a lively spirit lives on , he will never be forgotten , he shall be remebered as everything and everyone has of him from a memory to a simple smile ...... he wasa one of the guys you would crush on , or look up to , he was the all around party goer:)
Cam We wont forget you

<3

Black eye

, so this weekend sucked major balls , minus the day in centrum -_-.... lmao , i was sort of suppost to hang maby with Nae, Sarah and i think Riley and brit, not to sure who was gonna be there ><... but saddly my dad was like NO u are sick and i don't want ot drive back and forth and all that crap , and i hink Nae's mad :(... god i wished i could of gone , cuz i miss her facial expressions of how funny she is><... lmao she could lift a dying man's spirirt with one smile :) , yes as u can see im in a jolly mood , if your wondering why i am , it's because i just discovered that i might be able to see her sooner then later:) , i had almost every weekend till x-mas planned ( way to long without seing my best friend i must add) , and well last night i talked to Melee ..... annnd she isnt coming down , not until her b-day atlest , so that just gave me 2 weekends too see Nae WOOOOT , and this weekend imma make sure to see her like BAM , i might miss her way to much at this point -_-.... but weirdly enough i think she hates me :(... or mad at me , cuz she told me not to call here anymmore , and just wrote w.e on my wall and her status was " im done with your b.s" im totally hoping it's not about me , but with my awesome luck it is , i dunno why tho :S... actually Friday night i asked where are friendship is going cuz to be honest i havent kestionned my friendship with her since our last fight i know that shes there for me and ill always be there for her , but i asked where was it heading and she sort of took it the wrong way , but then we were fine again , cuz she understood that i didnt mean it like that ><... and like gahhh , anywaiis , so tonight i think imma call her to plan something for the weekend , and omg i saw new pis of her hair that im guesssing sarah did , and it's really nice :):) im jealous that she got to do Nae's hair ><.....teehee.... speaking of hair i have my appointement soon woot wooot , and my tattoo omg omg omg ^^ lmao and my septum and my meduse :):):)

Pce&Love
Maree

Damn you's a sexy fiiiissshhhh

damn you's a sexy bitch
damn' you's a sexy fish ><

haha so wow , we are sunday , and im working tomortrow morning at 9 , gahhh , but for the past three days its been amazing , i couldnt ask for a better weekend , like im surprised Sam hadsn't tried to murder me yet , ou well ><...its been so much fun and tomorrow after work im heading to her place cuz Sam,Niki ,Anita( aka mom , well sam n niki's mom><) we are going to Sidney and Lindsay's house for thanksgiving supper:) me soo pumped , its going to eb soo much fun :)
anywais immas check my facebook adn im off to beddy byes cuz im so tired , but i shall leave you with this , be thankfull for your loved ones because they only come once and if you loose them , who knows when you shall see them again , i should know , losing my mother and sister :( <3

Knew all the blackest blues

Hqppy Thanksgiving my fellow Canadians!!!! haha for me this isn't a big weekend , i have alot to be thankfull for, but saddly lately i haven't been all that thankfull trust me , but today and yesterday was an amazing two days spent with one of my best friends :) Miss Sam :) woot , ye si said i was suppost to see Nae but we all now that didn't that didn't happen , anywaiiis , so yeh yesterday we watched like awesome things on youtube and T.v cna't rmeber what saddly ><... but yeh and we listenied to music and tlaked :) " I don't wanna know if you got laid" sry song im listening to at the moment><.... so yeh and we made this nast soup last night , i wanted to puke >< , and today i went over again , i looked pretty awesome i must say , :) , and we wacthed movies :) ordered some yummy suicide\honey garlic wings , and argued abouit me and my husband sasuke <3<3<3><><...... so yeh , and well today got me thihkking while texting people , " if the hole world told me i should disapear , could i fall next to you" lmao sry song again ><... very sad , actually i am tearing up , there hasant been one day this past month i havent cried saddly i am that pathetic and your the one i tell , wow im that awesome i tell a computer how i truly feel , but yeh i wasthinking about how things have changed for me , and how ive changed for the better , but again it';s never enough for certain people , so im getting rid of some people agaoin :(... it blows but tonight sam and i had a deep convo bout certain things and well i don't need people telling me to grow up and people telling me how messed up i am and that im fucked , gahh , It's just hard to ctahc my feelings when i always run away , but this time im not ruinning , im walking to face everything.... this might get messy trust me

Grow the fuck up and act like ur Eighteen :)

Broken nails

it's thursday meaning tomorrow is my b4est friends non birthdayy :) , yes shes being a total loser about it but its okay ><... lmao soo today , today, today was a major ass of a headache , a truck fueled about 65$ in gas , then drove off, went to Sam's but then left an hour later cuz she was heading to the sens game, and now im home with a headache and cramps , fun i know ...but yeh hopefully tomrrow Nae still wants me to come over , cuz i finally got my mom to man up and drive me there after my shift , well i finish at noon , and she finishes at 4 so id be there round 5? .. lmao
Saddly she didnt want me buying her any present , well she can suck it up :) , i bought her one that im either bringing tomorrow or its part of her x-mas present><.... cuz i wanna bring her shpping so she can pick out somehting also ><... like i sort of wanted to buy her a new monroe ring but i didnt know wich one so imma bring her to bayshore and make her shoes some ><... woot , annd saturday , it's thanksgiving here , ad Nae is comiong over to save me from it , can i say i have an aaweosme friend :)

now speaking of that friend , imma go do the dishes then clal her up:)

Pce&Love
Maree

Qui Prendras a Place

Si l’instant
Menacer par le temps
Change les vents
Qui prendra ma place en suivant mes pas
Effa?ant mes traces et ma voie
Si l’instant
Menacer par le temps
Ne m’appartient pas
Qui prendra ma place en suivant mes pas
Effacant mes traces et ma voie
Qui Prendras Ma Place : Marie-Mai

Damdidadomdi , it's finally wensday , the middle day of the week anoncing that i only have 2 more days of work till the morst horrible weekend on the face of this earth , my plans with Sam , not happeneing , cuz she truly busy :(, Emma leaving for the cottage , and everyone else couldn't care less of if i wanted to hang with them -_-... so my social life , 2 people yep im that aweosme at this point , I've hit rock bottom ..... so im in my week , and im truly emotionally , and right now i feel so damn alone and depressed , tho im super happy thati have Humanoid English and German , obviously i enjoy the German better ><... and well Friday is My best fwends Birfday=D shes getting old i know 15 wow , its sickening ><... Jk.... saddly i havent talked to her in like 2 weeks?... if that .... fml , i wanted to do this aweomse thing for her birthday , but she's probly busy... but as long as she has fun on her birthdya im happy for her:)... okay i might be lying throught my teeth id be somehwat mad if i didnt see her for her b-day but saddly it wouldn't surprise me if she made plans and forgot bout me , everyone else has , well Kaitlyn,Caitlin,Tristan are the only ones i talk to now ( Sam,Tay,Emma,Caro are other catogory><) ... but yeh from west no one talks to me unless i start a convo with them , well K.m talks to me like everyday shes an aweosme friend , like today she made my day when she was like ur aweosme =D gahh made me smile for a split second ><... then i realised i was smiling by myself and stopped .... if i cried myself to sleep for a week straight would that be bad?.... like since i tlaked ot my sister ive been so , everywhere , i truly need my friends cuz man saddly i decide to play with the exacto knife on sunday , it wasn't pretty , my hip has a nice clean cut now , i hate my life..... FUCK , im so blessed and thankfulll and happy to have talked to Maryse , but allt his anger and frustration and sadness has been haunting me since....

Fuck & Life
Maree

HUMANOID LAND OF ZOMBIES

YES I HAVE HUIMANOIIIIIIIID =D Im the ahppiest girl alive att his moment , it's amazing :):):):) , andddd i saw one of my girls tonight the one and only Bff ninja i know ><.... SAM :) we went shopping at bayshore , bought her and emma's first x-mas gifts, yes i buy mor ethen one thing for my best freidns i am that aweomse:P and we went to eat at shoeless joes wich is YUMMMY try the Buffalo Chicken fingers ( suicide and hot ) ^^ , then we went to see Zombie land , AWESOME MOVIE :) , and then we talked about the upcoming weekend since my rents are dumb and forgot about me they planned a weekend of adult fun , so sam invited me to live with her woot , and miss Emma will join =D mouhahahahaha

Pce&Love
Maree

Countdown minus one day

HUMANOID!!!HUMANOID!!!HUMANOID!! OMG OMG OMG TOMORROW IS HUMANOID RELEASE DAY:) Finaklly Tokio Hotel's new c.d is coming out!!!!!!! i am soo excited ive been waiting for this fooooooorrrrrr so long! wowza :) , so this weekend was good , considering the facts that i have maby if 3 realz ><... lmao , i was with Emma on Fridayy:) we wet shopping :) then on saturday me and my dad went to hull:) gahh that was good i got to book my appointement for my septum and my other new percing , wich no one will know about until its done , well except a few liek Sam,Tay Emma,Caro they shall drag it outta me , well Emma and Caroline already suceeded><><><... hahaha , and me and her and tay are going to get tattoo's in less then 2 weeks , well Tay is going only with her mom at her b-day but the weekend after that me and Emma are going at the same time :) sooo pumped , and it's truly a mirtacle i get my beloved sisters name tatooed and i talked to her last week , i think things are finally going my way .... and so my final design is a bow as i originally planned with Emma last Xmas if im not crazy ><... teehee but i shall also make it a little dark , like it's not going to be pink or anything but its going to be different , can't say my fellow friends you shall have to wait to see><, so saddly sunday i couldnt see a cdrtain friend :9 Dee i haven't seen her since Carp fair o.O.... befor that it was like summer o.O , and well she went shopping with her mom wich i thihnk is pretty awesome ,but yeh i was hoping to hang with her and her sister cuz i love both of them like they are my own sister , thats why it's not weird for me to hang with them ><... but saddly i don't think ill see them anytime soon trust me.... aniwais , on to more funny news , i gaged my snake bites o.O yes i knwo GROSSSS, but its not a huge deal , its just that my ball on the stick shit , went through my lip , hurt like a bitch but its pretty awesome , so now i need to be very carefull :)...

Pce&Love
maree

Happiness takes 4 years

Wow so i have ALOt of things to say sinde my last post , first of all , i called my sister on thursday, talkd to ehr for 11:40 minutes :) there was alot of crying and laughing , mostly at the same time , i have missed out on 4 years of my babie sisters life:( she is now in grade nine in the art major at DELASALLE:) im so proud of her , hence that school is incredebly hard to get into , tho i did get into vocal and intstrumental major:) anywais , so she tells me that shes tall now , has long ish hair and its a brownish red :) she used to have blonde hair as a child and bright blue eyes :) so she has changed alot , and she said shes dyed her hair a few colors already >< , and she also told me that i have a baby brother of the name Andrew:) what a gorgeous name i must say:) , i knew i had a brother but i alwais wondered his name ><.... so we tlaked , and she wants to see me soon:) that i am truly blesseed when i see her i shall never let her go again :) i have never gone a day without thinking about my sister and mother , and on thursday my cries for help had been answered , by myself ><.. lmao , my parents are proud and i am proud of myself for making that leap into the crazy world of drama :) , and well i can't beleive that my baby girl is 14 , how times have changed , she is a mature young girl now :) i am sure that the hardshiops to come she will concer with me:)
so now on some more boring aspects of life.... i have realised that i am losing alot of friends, well there still here and talk to me , but i think now what i call them are "old friends " and are now accaintences , like its sad i know ><... lmao but the people that i can still say are either a Great ,good,or best friend are liek Sam,Emma,Tay,Kaitlyn,Cailtin,Tristan,Tegan,Leah,Niki,Amy,DeeandruhhhSara,Sarah,Caro,Melissa ,Hmmm and maby alittle more people ?.... but like it sucks that alot of the people i have to start .....talking its gone to the point the if they truly want to stay friedns well they can make that affort >< it blows i knwo:(
so know i was thinking this wekened the only people who wanted to hang were Caitlin,Kaitlyn,Tegan,Sam,Emma,Deandruh , like i was like boyyah :) , but k,c,t wanted to party and i was liek not after taliking to Maryse on thursday i was and still am ery emotionally unstabalised>< ... emma and sam wanted to go CHAPTERS<# gahh i love , and dee and i wanted to go shopping , but shes going with her mom today :( maby ill spot her in bayshore (hopefully shes at bayshore) lmao lmao , or elses ill be lookoig for a ghost ><

Peace and love bitchess ,
Maree <3