June 29, 2009

It's been a long year without you
And I can't seem to go one day
Without thinking about you
It's not that I doubt you
If I found you I would put my arms around you
Wish I could let you know how much I miss you
Entertain the pain
If I could I would kiss you
I wanna be with you I've tried letting go
But I don't know how to quit you.
No baby you can't change me
But maybe you'll find
That you're
Better off, Better off,
That's what you get for
That's what you get for
Movin on movin on
Try and forget you
Try and forget
Like every day you ever cried
Back them up and say goodbye
Movin on, that's what you get for
It's been a long time without you
And I'm still doing everything I can
Just to not think about you
And not that I doubt you
If I found you
Would I let my thoughts surround you?
I feel just a little bit stronger
I'll wait just a little bit longer
But I'm doin just fine without you babe
Better off, better off,
That's what you get for
That's what you get for
Movin on movin on
Try and forget you
Try and forget
Like every day you ever cried
Back them up and say goodbye
Movin on, that's what you get for
Spend the night alone again
Waste the air you're breathing in
Close the curtains
And lock the door
Hide from what you're waiting for
Could've wasted time on me
Giving up so easily
But I think you're there to move it on
Better off, Better off
That's what you get for
That's what you get for
Movin on movin on
Try and forget you
Try and forget like
Better off, Better off,
That's what you get for
That's what you get for
Movin on movin on
Try and forget you
Try and forget
Like every day you ever cried
Back them up and say goodbye
Movin on, that's what you get for

Entertain the pain : My favorite Highway


As you can guess im listening tho that song, to be honest I'm like obsessed with it, like i love it , but now i need to find a new song with love lyrics.... like I've also been listening to bass hunter like non-stop for 2 days now ... but yeh i love that song , i dunno why?....hmm....oh well , so last night...actually i shoulkd say this morning :P me Renae and jeff talked till about 3....3:330 am.... tlak about a long tlak , we started talking around 9pm... so thats a whole lot of talking , and i truly think im over colin at this point in time , liek omg Jeff is so sweet i like him so much , and today he's going to buy plane tickets to come see me:), I'm so ecited , yes it may sound strange but we haven't met , only webcam , pics, and msn...and an hour long convo on the phone :)..... annnnd speaking of long distance , this summer I'm going everywhere , im going to Brandford with myparents around july 20th, then around august 10 im going to St-Foy in quebec to see Pat, and Vez , with one of my best friends , her name Caroline , now that i think about it I'm the luckiest person alove , i have 2 amazing bestfriends and about 5 amazing VERY GOOD friends , iwould call them best friends but ...i dunno.....:P.... thats to many best friends:P...lol....oh and today Renae is getting her teeth fixed, i dnt think anyhting is wrong with them but i aint a dentist, did i say i have a phobia against dentist's , well i just did , they terrify me !!! lol , so yeh and after her appointement , im going to her placce for a SLEEPOVAH:) im so ecited , i don't know what i would do without her and Caroline , and Emma and ect........lol
Pce&Love
Maree

Jeff

so its 12:47 ...... and ive just gotten into a relationship with Jeff :) he is the sweetest guy ever, we haven't known each other for very long , but there are major sparks already, he makes me feel beautyfull and sexy and omg , im all giddy right now :) , sad part about this , he lives in calgary .... but he is in the process of buying tickets, for me to go visit him for 5 days, then he would come back with me to ottawa to meet my parents and friends and he would stay here for a week or to , he even said he shall consider moving closer to me , but i might do a transfer in colleg to be closer to him, i don't know...... but i cna't leave my firends here, Renae , Caro,mel,Kaitlyn,Sarah,Pat,Vez,ect..... ugh...... but for now im the happiest girl ever :)
Pce&Love
Maree

June 28, 2009

It,s already the afternoon , and ive barely done anything , well i woke up , had a coffee, red a fan fiction , did my hair and makeup ,and blogged . Right now I'm talking to Nae on the phone:P... talking about her awesome stalker , well hes not really a stalker just a overly obsessive crush... we don't actually know :(.... and i got a LAPTOP :) , its an MSI black laptop , it's awesome , though i can't use it yet , theres no internet , no music (aka itunes) , none of my pictures :(... but im sure to get it all on :), and tomorrow i think and hoping to see my friend Sam , and go swimming and have her help me with my new found love ( my laptop)....and what about Canada day , like Jacci wants to have a bonfire at her place with em and Nae , but she lives right beside a graveyard , wich makes me scared...not scared , but ugh i dunno gives me the hibbie jibbies :S ... we shall see:P
Pce&Love
Maree

In The Moment

laughing away or innocence
i can see the blissful presence
the smokey air
the lustful breeze
Chills scrolling down the chair
you give more i say please
how far are you willing to go

One night
can change it all
turn off the light
darkness will own us
gown and ball
thrown away for the moment
that blissful touch
that lust
screams of pleasure
and that last component


Slow brushes from my hair
tug on it
it makes it fair
a heated touch
sounds off the lust

The night has arrived
there's no where to hide
a helpless feel
can over come his desires
now you undress
to impress
the one you ran from
sipping on that rum
giving you that last piece
making it the tease
asking come get me
that when you know you shall be
in the moment


One night
can change it all
turn off the light
darkness will own us
gown and ball
thrown away for the moment
that blissful touch
that lust
screams of pleasure
and that last component


Slow brushes from my hair
tug on it
it makes it fair
a heated touch
sounds off the lust

Never Ending Beat

Listen one more time
lemme give u one more smile
every dream you've shed
I've been there
every tear fallen I've caught it
so baby don't forget to let me know oh oh oh

The music we used to dance to
now faded but only to make way for a new sound
a little but a lot can make anything as loud
as the end of the lightning hit

Lemme look into your eyes
lemme see those smiles
you once gave without ask
i knew it wouldn't last
but i am with and your gone only the light can tell me where to go next
i shall never be that ex

Breathe in that last kiss
its only that little moment of bliss
that i can forgive
but without you i cannot live
come with me
and run baby run
well go somewhere
only one place that they dnt know of
deep down we shall part
but forever we shall be
with our heart beat
the beating of the hearts beat will never die

Once We Were

Asking Once More

Can i ask one more smile
Please stay for a while
Take my hand
to let it be broken again
i need you like a dark alley
needs a perfect shine

ill guide you through the pain again
so you can leave me and once more i stay up then
let me breathe on
let me cry my tears when your not around
let it e the one to take me away
without any doubt
of being the last one to cry about

Leaving me behind
might of seemed like the best way to forget
but now i cant realize
how much pain i caused
inside

Did you cry
because i know i tried
tried to bring back
all your memories
but it wasn't enough
i wasn't good enough
life let me on the edge
for you to come get me
lets just face it , that will never be

once alone
now all hope has gone along
i cant sleep
without crying about what we used to be
dont let the last tear be of me

Broken Boundaries

Taken away
you walked out
leaving everything you knew about me astray
my screams can';t even reach out
only the sound of your misled footsteps echo through the dark path
and the mistaken feelings surrounding my broken heart

whispers running through
screams passing by
Violent winds swirling
blood shot eyes can't reach
water drowning my face
im crying
you've left me
why couldn't we just be
that sunken feeling
the drowning sense
i think im dying

Your words
those hurt feelings
the broken heart
that last blow to my ego
why couldn't i let go
i wanted you here
but all u wanted wasn't to be near

whispers running through
screams passing by
Violent winds swirling
blood shot eyes can't reach
water drowning my face
I'm crying
you've left me
why couldn't we just be
that sunken feeling
the drowning sense
i think im dying

June 27 , 2009

Second day , and already hooked on blogspot! So this morning woke up around 11 ... Renae being half naked in my bed, way to have a good morning right??:P and i just realise its been a week since prom.... wow... so prom was awesome , i hooked up with an old crush named Keith :) it was amazing! , but nothing else happened it was just a random hook up....So now Renae and I are trying to deciee on either going to David's house fgor a swim or not , he's majorly perma fried , and i don't really like that, but hes a sweetheart, Ugh!.....we probably won't go seing as she's getting picked up later today , and the fact that he isn't really mentally there at the moment, if you get what i mean.
Pce&Love
Maree

June 26,2009

Wow , so im on Blogger!Sweet eh?.. so im hanging with my Bestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestestest ** take deep breath ** Bestestestestestestestes Friend, A.K.A Renae Nixon , she's the one who showed me this awesome site, ** cough** go see her blog its amazing if i should say anythig :) so Today was filled with excitement , Renae and I went ot Bayshore and got matching Neon shudder t-shirts, matching lace underwear , and Bff Necklaces. Yes i am corny like that , deal with it , u are jealous :) , and right now she is falling asleep , and contemplating on taking a gravol , i took one earlier..... it don't think the pizza we ate liked us very much :(.... well im off Pce&Love Maree