Change is Good

Its been over 2 months since ive written here . I'm not the same Maree i was a year ago or 2 month ago , Im now 19 , have 2 tattoo's , 17 piercings in total have had over 29 , I've had a few bf's and alot of fuck friends , things around me grow and die , Im still crazy and weird , but people have noticed a change , funny it took me so long to notice it .... Im becoming who I'll be in the future , gauges,tattoos and all . I'm actually realising how amazing life can be if you give it a chance , yes at times i just want to jump off a bridge , but they are some moments that are just so worth it , like I had lost a best friend , a dear love , she had been one of the best things in my life , and a guy got in the middle and i lost her , but Were good now , trying over type thing , i see her almost 2 a week now , and its amazing , she is one of the only people ive ever fully trusted , and still to this day she remains one of the few ill always love and cherish the friendship like its a delicate flower , but get crazy like its a bottle of vodka .Also losing people and gainning new ones is good , ive lost many friends this year , some by just losing touch and some others by stupid high school drama , and fact i ain't in high school anymmore so they can shove their wa wa up their ass . But who ever is in my life at the moment should know that i love them and that im thankfull to have them , it's hard to find the true friends , and i know I've found a handfull , and headint out into the world isnt as bad as it could of been , i know have a corporate office job , well i have a cubicle in a giant building on elgin for bell Canada , i work for the high speed center , and its an amazing job , i truly hope i can keep it and to the best i can with it . Maby someday ill open my own salon and tattoo parlor , maby someday ill go to college but at the moment things are good , i don't have a boyfriend , but i still hve some guy friends on the side if you get my drift , but one things for sure ,life is to short for dumb bitches and birth moms tat could as well be dead , they need to grow up , and you shouldnt be waiting for them , walk away and make your own path to life , and follow your rainbow to your pot of gold , and sex is still amazing my loves .