Family , what does that mean? , to me not alot , friends alot , all i have is my dad , and well 2 nights ago i lost that , my step mother named Veena has won , she's wanted me out since the day i stepped in , and now well i have no where to turn , I was hoping maby a friend would help , but friends drop like flies when you need help , somehow I've always been there for them tho , i guess when your at a time like this you see the real from the fake , and it hurts , but I'll live . So at the moment im cleaning the house , and doing my everyday things , wich is weird considering the fact it's probably my last few hours here , tho i have no where to go. Dad doesnt want me to leave for ever he just wants me gone for about 2 weeks so that Veena and i can clear our heads and then work things out , but whrre the fuck those he think i can go? Sam's ? Emma's? Mel's? Caro's ... nop.... it sucks to be in this situation . To be in this has made me think of suicide , not surprising thinking that for me ive thougt about it since i was 14 ... probly even before but thats when i gguess it truly hit . And now once agina im in between thoughts and action of it , i don't want to go , still want to be able to hold my sister in my arms one last time , i want to fix te broken friendships i want to make my dad happy , but with what i have at the moment , im considering it more then ever
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